Anonymous 39

it’s been getting bad again. the depression just sits on me like a weight. i miss saul so much. sometimes i still talk to him like he’s here. he always made me laugh even when i wanted to disappear. now everything’s just quiet. some days i don’t even wanna move. i keep pretending im ok but im not. i don’t think i’ve really been ok since he died. it still doesn’t feel real most days.